All hail PINK...

The newest addition to my family. The 3 month old Pariah Pup, long, brown and fem

An ode to misery

Misery... Oh, sweet misery, why must you follow me everywhere I go?
Eager anticipation of the future without thee I dream of...
A smile on my face without a hint of ye I have never felt...
You my love, my comrade, and my foe leave me not...
For I'd be lost without you, my misery...

Misery... Oh, enigmatic misery, why do blazing guns halt whilst you pass by?
The world has not known no pain, no joy, no discomfort without thee...
So composed are you that even the most steadiest of hands tremble before ye...
For with your charm you have convinced the world they cannot do without...
Yes, they'd be lost without you, Miss Misery...

Misery... Oh, faithful misery, why is it as the cold tempest rage outside my windows...
You keep my bed warm with your silence and yet your overwhelming presence?
A heavy heart, trails of tears and a wet pillow besiege me every night...
I beg of you to let me keep you beside me for all eternity...
My friend, my lover, my sweet misery...

Misery... Beautiful Misery, why must bedazzle your devotees with your charm?
I profess without thee single moment I'd survive not...
I confess I'd die without you by my side...
Stay with me...
Oh, beautiful misery, I love you...

Emotions

Sometimes emotions run wild and amok, while we frantically use our intellect to figure or maybe even comprehend what the fuck is going on? Looking for plausible answers and conclusions to maybe explain to ourselves that we are going to be alright. Maybe its not we who go through this ordeal, maybe its just me. As a human, I am always faced with loneliness everyone once in a while. I rather be in my comfort zone, where I am just happy go lucky, just filled with my own sense of being. Or maybe its a sense of belonging I crave to have which I have never had at home, with friends or even a lover. doesn't make sense, does it? Thats what blogs are for, I guess, ranting... Nothing else...

in pursuit of emptiness...

yet another birthday, to prove that our lives are shallow and we r in search of emptiness... and that there is no god, no compassionate one, no one who cares... jus have to get used to the fact... its high time now... do i have infinite words of wisdom at 27, no i dont. do i have anything to say, no i dont. do i know anything from the previous day, no i dont. birthday or no birthday, life is always the same... hello darkness my old friend, i have come to talk to u again. the serpent seems to care more than the saint. why do people make innocent children believe in god? how can people be so cruel to do that? how can they program them to think so? why r we so heartless? so selfless so as to believe that we cant take care of ourselves and that we need an infinitely powerful god to take care of us, when this being cannot take care of the world around us. somehow i have this feeling its not going be long before i go now. i know i don have much left, my body hurts, it feels like i am wearing a suit, my tremors are worsening, breathing is becoming much heavier than normal, having severe chest pains, weakening joints, and finally the new symptom to worsen the tragic comedy nose bleeds. i just got to move on, maybe i am wrong maybe i am gonna go at hundred or at a hundred and twenty. i just want a factory. maybe a couple more than one. makes me smile. nothing like a manufacturing unit. the synchronisation. the rythm in the noises. its just beautiful to stand in a factory and hear everyone work towards a single goal... k, i have to go and get back to work. enough of ranting...

A daisy chain for satan

"I live for drugs."
"That's great."
"I freaked out very very badly."
"I freaked out on acid."
"That's great."
"I'm the white rabbit."
Here where I sit alone lost
Here I will dream, why
Give me a drink, I need a think now
I gotta rip my stinking brain
"My friends turn me on."
"I could never afford it, I
would never buy drugs."
"I live for drugs."
"That's great."
"I'm the white rabbit."
Black boots, highway broads
Dope forever, forever loaded
Black boots
"I freaked out on acid."
"I'm the white rabbit."
Here where I sit alone lost
Here I will dream, why
Give me a drink, I need a think now
I gotta rip my stinking brain
"I freaked out very very badly."
"I freaked out on acid."
"I'm the white rabbit."
"Joan? Joan? Bitch! I'm
gonna find her, and I'm gonna
kill her!"

Nippon Nippon

I fail to understand why at this point why much of the western world is trying to implement manufacturing techniques from Japanese companies into their own. It seems pointless to me, cause much of the culture is different and that terms like Lean Manufacturing or Kaizen or Kaikaku may work for a few western companies who are able to abide by the complete philosophy or this pattern of thinking.

Go Nippon Go!!!

Fatima's Gold

The sun shines brightly upon the lot
Whilst in heaven they moan
and in hell they mourn
The songs of freedom befriend them lot

Show them the meaning of it all
The greater scheme, the bigger plan
and if there be none
A hoax on em all

to all who hear she calls, "come home to the desert"
She lives in the desert sands
far greater than any other land
Fatima lives in the desert, Fatima lives on

One by one they fade, one by one they die
Goodbye one, goodbye all
The dead alchemist churns blood into gold
But Fatima lives in the desert, Fatima lives on

To make this desert my home I come
Just to find hell and heaven in one
I weep, I moan, I mourn
To find the visage but now she's gone

The sun shines brightly on my face
Singing those songs of freedom
Realizing that this life is not hoax but a mirage
Fatima lives in the desert
But Fatima is simply not home

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

"How happy is the blameless vestal's lot! The world forgetting, the world forgot, Eternal Sunshine of the spotless mind! Each prayer accepted, and each wish resigned"
- Alexander Pope

Innocence, I have never taken for granted, not merely I but all who have lost innocence as children. How we've tried to win it back but have never been able too... Then again, who wants to be innocent? Who wants to be pure?

Hmmm, nothing like Creedence Clearwater Revival right now... Knowing that the end is coming but to embrace it with open arms anyway.

I remember trying to find innocence early on, I mean after I lost it of course, but right now, it doesn't bother me, except when I am in a situation where I know too much... Ha ha, ignorance is bliss.

In a way, I love my life... In a way, I don't... Yet to find peace with myself... And somehow all with a spotless mind...

I love my critters

Thats Robbie... I don exactly like this cat but I still take care of him. Why? He bit me three times!!! Man, the nerve of this critter. Kinda good looking though...

Ooohhhh so chweeeet!!! Adorable lil kitten!!! Yeah rite... Bummer

Touch me and I'll bite... Damn, u can see that in his eyes...

If there's anyone who reads my blog and likes this kitten a lot. Do tell me... I will mail him over to ur address... I swear, I will...

Sophie, loves to eat, loves to play, loves to jump up on my shoulder and lick my hair.

Dude... Do u mind? You are squeezing me...

Thats it... OUCH!!!

Kyle with the pointed ears... Loyally and faithfully as Sophie's courtesan, don't ask me how they do it... Please don't ask...

Look at me, I am Sophie's side kick. I go where ever she goes...

What do you do?

Just feel like expressing a lot with letting anyone know what all this is about... Yeah, life is a btich, especially to those who have been bitches. Jesus loves you... Fuck you, no one cares, we are alone alone alone. Nothing no one can do can ever bring us close to being whole. Who cares anyway? Its just another blog where someone is not making any sense at all...

What do u do when u have a lot of hurt thats stuck in ur heart? What do u do when u given up on humanity? What do u do when u just start to believe someone out there really cares only to realize they don't?

Why do we do what we do? Why does it hurt when you start to care? Why does it hurt just when you give a part of urself to someone thinking they'd keep it safe?

NOBODY gives two hoots about anybody, we r all running in this selfish rat race... Oh, my God this guy is crazy, what about love? Love, the purest form of the lack of selfishness... Doesnt exist.
It doesnt..

Ann Sarah Speaks

Hi, I am Ann Sarah, I am a month old, I do look constipated but don pay attention its jus all the milk

Ummm, tummy hurts... Nevertheless...

My story is really simple, I met this really nice guy. He helped my mom and dad out a lot before I was born.

The first time I saw him, I had chills through my spine. He was so sweet and soft spoken...

He came up to me, picked me up in his arms and said, "Hey beautiful"

It was love at first sight...

It was like I longed to be in his arms forever. After we parted, we didn't see each other, i.e.; till today. You know, either I am sleeping or he's sleeping. Its just tiring to be awake all the time...

Anyway, I dreamed of him, I hope he'd come and pick me up in his arms and hold me close to his beating heart...

I wish he'd jus call me on the telephone...

Tell me that he loved me more than the stars above...

I would talk to him three hours straight, if only he'd have called.

Speaking of which, look who's here...

Thats him, the love of my life...

So what, he is 25 years older than me, I am sure no one would love me as passionate as he would

I just love to lie next to him and gaze at the stars above

So, he's older to me. but I know we can make this work. He loves me as much as I love him

Its love that counts, right?

I dream of the days when we could be together...

And that us, we will make it work... We will

Baby Joanna: No comments...

Please welcome: Ann Sarah

The new addition to the gang: Ann Sarah

And the brat the elder sister: Anna Maria

Baby Joanna

A certain snot faced cutie pie baby named Joanna...

"Stop staring and Pick me up, will ya?"

Hey You, Yeah You, Who u calling tiny? I'd kick ur fat white bottom all over the place...

"Julie, I'd do the stars with you anytime"

PLAYSTATION 3: The gaming marvel...